Monday, October 6, 2008

much sadness

I got absolutely heartbreaking news from my BFF tonight, my BFF who drove hundreds of miles to stand up for me when I eloped, my BFF who just recently started blogging....Rachel, of Home on the Range.

She had her third baby this morning....a girl. Felicity Faith. Rachel was really hoping for a girl. Of course, she was just hoping for a healthy baby, cuz that's what we know we're all supposed to say, but I knew she really wanted a girl. Devastatingly, she didn't get her healthy baby. Somehow, the umbilical cord was tied in a tight knot leaving her unable to breath. I don't know all the traumatic details, but I DO know that this little girl was loved and wanted more than anything. 

I can't even begin to fathom the deep sadness and maybe even anger that Rachel and her husband are feeling right now. I spent the night driving around in silence, crying and praying for my dear friend. What can you say to a friend who has just lost the baby she carried for 41 weeks? Yesterday she was blogging about the new baby sling she was anxious to use and tomorrow she will be planning a memorial service. Why do these things happen!!??

So I finally managed to drag myself into a store to look for a sympathy card. I HATE sympathy cards! They all say something totally dumb..... some poetic nonsense meant to comfort the grieving, but really they just sound cliche and shallow. I bought one anyway. Something about there not being words. And as I stood there at Shopko, bawling between the Thanksgiving cards and the humorous cards (the kind that Rachel and I save for each other), I wished there was something.....anything I could do to help her. What good will a card do? Sure, I'll be praying for her like mad, but I feel so helpless. Helpless and so incredibly sad. 

Pray for my dear sweet friend.

9 comments:

Kristi said...

I'm praying, Julie.

LisAway said...

This is so tragic. I don't know either of you but I will be praying for her.

I'm so happy that you were published today so you will be getting happy comments on that post as well as sympathetic ones on this.

Brillig said...

Oh, how utterly heartbreaking. I can't even fathom the pain that she (and all who love her/them) must be dealing with right now. I'm so, so sorry.

Heather of the EO said...

Oh Julie. I'm so sorry. For your friend and for you. I'll be praying too. I'm just so sorry.
You're right, it's so hard to understand?!? WHY? Oh, I'm so sorry.

The Three 22nds said...

How absolutely horrible...I am so sad...crying at my computer this morning...I have been thinking about her so much the last couple days...and worrying about her...

Sabrina said...

Im so very sorry julie! I will be thinking and praying for them. so so sorry....

Nikki said...

We're praying, Julie.

The Three 22nds said...

When you have a chance can you get me her address? Or let me know if they decide to have a public memorial service?

theanticsofthethree22nds at gmail dot com

Rachel said...

Thank you Julie! Your post meant a lot to me. Just keep praying, every moment seems to be struggle right now.
Love ya!